I woke up Thursday morning terrified.
Before I could even open my eyes, I was torn from my duvet-encrusted bliss by a nasty thought – one that’s been plaguing me regularly since I decided to start my business last year.
You will totally relate to this thought. Having worked with dozens of women over the past few months, I’ve seen it sneak into the minds and lives of countless clients, wreaking havoc on their inner peace and shattering their confidence.
The thought is this: I need more money.
See, I told you you’d relate.
I woke up Thursday morning and instead of the hazy dreamlike, uber grateful attitude I start most days with, my money panic filled me with anxiety.
I started to think about bills, invoices and upcoming deadlines. Before my feet hit the floor, my heart was racing. A feeling of impending doom took over me, and instantly, my ego tried to solve it.
I felt so strongly I needed to do something, anything! I thought that if I opened my Macbook and immediately started working hard, that somehow the universe would take notice and immediately pad out my bank account.
But, somewhere deep within me, a voice whispered: surrender.
So, I did.
Instead of logging into Gmail or creating an Excel spreadsheet, I went downstairs to the kitchen and made my guy and myself a cup of hot matcha.
Then, I parked my butt on my meditation pillow, sparked a stick of incense and surrendered.
When I opened my eyes 20 minutes later, my peace was fully restored. I felt centered and connected to my truth. I remembered that no matter what, I am always divinely supported.
Then, I asked myself this: what is the most loving thing I can do for myself right now?
Whenever my clients are stressed, anxious or going through a big transition, my homework for them is always to crank up the self-love. Instead of adding to the pressure they’re facing, they become their own support system, doing whatever needs to be done to feel good.
For me, the answer was clear: put on red lipstick and get yourself an espresso.
So I did just that.
Yes, for most of us, having more money would always be nice. But if we get really real with ourselves we often realize we don’t really need it.
My experiences over the past few years have taught me two key lessons:
1. We always have exactly what we need.
2. We are always exactly where we need to be.
Yes, I have business and financial goals that are bigger than my current reality, but I am not supposed to be living out those dreams . . . yet.
By acknowledging and honouring my financial limits and working within them, I am learning the lessons that will ultimately move me forward toward my vision.
And I am moving forward.
I’ve done things on my own that I thought were impossible one year ago.
I’ve taken risks I was too terrified to take one year ago.
I’ve taken something that at one time was just a crazy idea, and built it into something real.
And as a result, I’ve helped dozens of women claim their power.
I’m not where I want to be, but I’m exactly where I need to be. And I already have everything I need to keep creating, inspiring and moving myself forward.
With SO much love + gratitude,